Tuesday, July 29, 2008

And Now

Sometimes it seems like it comes in waves, like those dark clouds descending on the skyline last night as the first rain in a long time settled into the humid, humid air.

Just the night before, as I was doing dishes I looked up and saw the glorious magenta sky right after the sun had set, the kind of color that you only see when the weather is changing. It's so beautiful, I thought to myself and I grabbed my husband so he could see it too.

And then the feeling that it might be the last thing of beauty you see in a long time because how, would someone please tell me how, can something so amazing exist more than once? How?

When our worlds fall apart, who do we cling to? What gets us through? How do we make it, while trying to take care of the others who depend on us so much?

That is simple.

Each other.

We are the ones we turn to. We, the sisters, the mothers, the friends, the community. We lift each other up more than we bring each other down and it is this power that I truly feel, in whatever form - be it the community that brings you suppers after surgery or this online community that rallys and supports when one of it's own is suffering - can make all the difference in the world.

I've been lucky to be a part of this community for just about three years and from the very beginning, I can tell you who my first 'blog friends' were. Lisa is one of them. I am begging you now, and I am not one to beg, please go visit Lisa (Midwestern Mommy). She is in the hospital, waiting to find out what kind of cancer she has.

And to think that I saw those dark clouds last night and thought their presence was only to remind me of the beauty the night before. The beauty before that I believe will be there again.

Lisa, you are going to be like that magenta sky - the sky before the dark that will remind me that even though I don't see it everyday, it's beauty and grace exist, even in the face of the dark.

15 comments:

slackermommy said...

Thank you so much for posting this. With so much support of IRL friends and family plus all the virtual support of the blogosphere I know she can beat this.

Christy said...

I will go...I will lend whatever prayers, thoughts and support that I can. What you wrote is beautiful, Carrie.

flutter said...

beautiful, Carrie

painted maypole said...

beautiful post

jen said...

i've just learned about this, it's like a kick in the gut, it affects all of us and we are all thinking of her.

GoteeMan said...

Praying for her now... thanks for sharing...

J/

Chelle said...

Your post is beautiful...and sad. I am praying for her and I am going to go to her blog now.
(((Hugs)))

OHmommy said...

Oh no,

no.

I know who my first readers are and have a special place in my heart for them all.

Hugs. And off to check her out and say some prayers.

Wendi said...

This may be one of the most beautiful posts ever written.
Truly.
Love it.
I am off to visit Lisa.

a Tonggu Momma said...

Carrie -- Thank you so much for posting this. Absolute beautiful.

My next-door neighbor (I call her Rosie on the blog) is battling a return of her breast cancer that metastasized in her liver and lungs.

I'll head over to visit Lisa, so that I can better pray for her.

Kyla said...

Beautiful post. Poignant and true.

LindaJ said...

Great post!!! Thank you for being my support/sister, you mean the world to me.

XOXOX
L

Queen of the Mayhem said...

I left her a comment today. I hope and pray she has a speedy recovery!

Sandy C. said...

Absolutely beautiful Carrie. I heard about Midwestern Mommy yesterday, and I cannot stop thinking about her. My thoughts and prayers are with her.

Ann(ie) said...

oh Lord....off to visit your friend, love. xo.